My individual condition: Nihilism → Indolence → Existentialism → conscious radical conformism (maybe transcending conformity and revolutionism alike. If so, not my achievement, but the non-intentional effect of the situation).
Being the fat-faced dutchman. Indolent and busy. And still enjoy inwardly – and maybe show this sympathy as an element of defending, in the case of need: When the Heligoland fisherman smiles. [Compare: Heinrich Heine – „Ludwig Börne: A Memorial“.]